Frustration.

Went to the Co-Op in the morning. All I can say is that I’m really don’t think they understand what I was talking about. I ended ups pending 2 hours inside the Co-Op trying to make them understand my point. I think they still don’t get it.

After going to places to submit one form after another in the afternoon, I came home at around 7 and after dinner and shower, it was back to programming again. Spent the past couple of hours working on the thing and I am getting very very very frustrated with the thing. I just don’t understand why certain things are not showing up even though I don’t think there was anything wrong with my codes.

I’m going back to the Co-Op on Wednesday, but I seriously don’t think I can give them a completed version of the project by then. Apparently everyone expects me to continue programming for it even after I reach Shanghai. To be honest I really don’t want to do that, but my responsibility and pride somehow don’t allow me to just throw it all away. For that, I think I can hold my heads up high and say if there’s anything that I can take from the project, it would probably be that I did not lose some people’s opinion of me for being responsible. Not too sure about others, but at least I dare to say that I’ve really done all I could have.

I think I’m really forgetting how play feels like. Shanghai beckons in 4 days’ time, yet I’m so tied up with this project that I’ve got no time to prepare. All I want is someone to say that “Hey, KC, you’ve worked hard enough – let me take over from here. Go prepare for your trip.” but hell no, I’ve got my suitcase gasping wide open in my room, the winter clothes lying all over the place, I haven’t bought enough socks, I haven’t got the necessary peripherals for my laptop… there are just so many things to do, but where the heck do I find the time to do it?

I’m so freaking sick of it all. I hate to be complaining about the project every time I make an entry in the journal, but situations do not allow me to stop moaning. God damn it.