Three and a half hours.

That’s how much time I have to do the revisions for my financial markets exam. And heck, I’m in no mood to do it.

Yuanyuan was right yesterday. I’m too direct a person so sometimes it makes it difficult for me to work with other people. Coupled with being strongly opinionated, it just makes life that little bit harder for me to go through. So I guess in that particular department I definitely have some room for improvement. That’s life, we have to constantly thrive for improvements, no matter how it’s going to come from or what it’s going to be. Sometimes running away from the problem is not a solution. Life is all about constantly fine-tuning youself. It’s never nice to take criticism, but without criticism then I can never be a better person.

But I must say that I’ve been trying hard to work with others. Just that I didn’t realise not everyone is on the same wavelength as me. But it’s not their fault, I don’t blame anyone cos not everyone is aware of that. As long as on my part I’m OK then that works for me. After all, we can’t change how others behave, can we? So if I have taken a step back but no one else is willing to back down, at least I know I’ve done my part in not contributing more to the problem.

This past month has been kinda bad for me – something to rectify. But of course it depends on which angle I am looking at. In a sense I’ve managed to do more self-realisation, something that I might not have realised (or choose not to realise) if I have stayed in Singapore. Perhaps to a certain extent I should be grateful for Shanghai – it made me understand more about myself. Perhaps I should start to love Shanghai again. That’s not to say that I’m hating it now, but it’s just that a series of unfortunate events have made me wonder if it’s my fault or Shanghai’s fault. After all, if such things didn’t happen then I may always live in an old shell that I would choose not to get out of.

But whatever it is, I’m looking forward to the October holidays.

Fell asleep twice while doing my revisions in office just now – I think I have forgotten how it feels like to be studying!

And Yvonne, if you are reading this, I must tell you that I’m very very envious of your new laptop! Perhaps I should start cranking up mine as well…

Sunrise at the Bund.

Spent the whole of yesterday in school working on the Marketing Management project. Eventually got it out and I was way pleased with myself, but the price to pay was that I missed the metro, so I had to take a bus back. A 45-minute ride from Chifeng Road to Changning Road was never going to be fun, but then again it was something new for me so I guess that wasn’t so bad.

Then after that I went to join Sister and the rest to karaoke. Stayed there until 3.30 and somehow someone suggested going to the Bund to see sunrise, so we went over there and stayed for about 45 minutes to see daybreak at about 4.30. We then went on for supper/breakfast and eventually left Nanjing Road at 5.30. Came back and basically slept the whole morning through.

Attended the marketing management lecture today and was quietly pleased with my own performance in the presentation. Though I think I should have done a little bit better.

I’m dead tired – I need sleep. Will post some of the pics taken these few days tomorrow, or the day after. Or one fine day.