Countdown.

My days in Shanghai are really numbered. And I’ve been trying to do as much as possible in these last few days. It’s so hard to say goodbye, especially to some of the people whom you don’t know if you’ll ever see again. Chances are I think I might break into tears when I eventually get on the plane on Thursday.

I think I’ll just do my roundup of my entire year’s stay in Shanghai tomorrow. After all I don’t know what tomorrow would be for me, so I think I should round it up only when it is really really over. But one thing that I’ve been doing today is being very philosophical. After such a long while, I really got down to ponder about life today. As usual I don’t have any concrete conclusion to have come out from all these ponderings, but at least I do realise that I’ve been lucky all along. From primary school to secondary school to JC to university and now in Shanghai, I have been lucky. I have never have to endure too many problems in my life, and I should be grateful to life. And the best way to show my gratitude to life is to live life to the fullest. I should not be worrying about all those small issues in life. I should be concerned with big things and be focused on my life. I don’t believe that things won’t go my way if I were to try hard enough. I believe I’ll get that second upper class honours degree, I believe I’ll land myself in a good job, I believe I’ll find myself a great companion in life in the future. The past is not something that I should be very concerned with, because whatever’s gone is gone, and it’s the future that’s more important. Dwelling on the past (or living in past glory) is not the way to move forward. Being confident about life is. And of course, we should always count our blessings, for it’s great to be alive.

So philosophical that I don’t even understand myself. But the most important thing is I just have to believe that I can make it in life. I believe I’ve changed after this one whole year in China, and now I believe I’m going to be different again at the end of the one year back in Singapore. I want to present to you a new me at the end of this year, and I would love it if you can be able to see it in person.

So help me Lord.