Angry.

This week has been horrible for me. It’s like people are either out to pick up a fight with me, or I’m just getting very irritable these days.

First of all I wonder what’s wrong that I’m behaving like a student, thinking like one and acting like one now? Is there anything wrong with that? I mean, I’m a student now after all, so is there anything wrong with that? Just because I’ve been to Shanghai on an entrepreneurship program does that mean that whatever I do, whatever I say, whatever I think must be that of an entrepreneur? What’s wrong with being cautious or thinking from other perspectives? Is one year in Shanghai really so great? Must one year in Shanghai change me so much that I have to be 100% different from what I used to be? I really take offence to people questioning why I want to behave like a student.

I certainly think that I’m someone who is strongly opinionated, and like to talk and discuss issues. But that doesn’t mean that when the time requires me to do work, I’ll sit in one corner and shirk responisbilities in doing work. I can dare say while I contribute vocally, I also contribute physically. Some people may not agree, but at least I dare say I make my contributions when needed. I think if people aren’t happy with that they can go stick their whatever crap they can hold onto up their arse.

And then there are some people who have opinions about me being so opinionated. They would hate me for being so talkative, they would hate me for having so much to say. But my question to you people is that, if you guys are really so good, why are you people keeping quiet? Is it that I talk so much that I don’t give you a chance? Or is it that I’m making you look bad by disagreeing with what you say? If that’s how you people think, I think you guys are just plain sad. If you keep quiet because you think I talk too much, then you are giving up your chance to go against me. You could have said something you feel strongly about, and I shouldn’t be a reason for you to shut yourself up. If you keep quiet, then you shouldn’t hate people like me who choose to participate actively in class. Just because you give your chance away you shouldn’t expect other people to do the same thing as well. If you choose to be passive, you shouldn’t stop others from taking initiative.

I feel so sick in attending classes now – I just don’t feel like going to school any more.