Mental burdens.

Yup, don’t look at me as if I’m always a happy-go-lucky guy, but yup I actually do have quite a bit of mental burdens. Not that they are really getting me down, but it’s just things that are constantly on my mind that every once in a while they will appear and make me ponder a bit. Normally they don’t really set me in a horrible mood, but sometimes they do too. But I guess when these things get me down it’s always visible for all to see (like how I broke down a few months ago with my HYP).

There are various sources of these mental burdens, some by default, some by choice. The strange thing is perhaps you’ll ask why I “choose” to have mental burdens, but normally for these “by choice” burdens it’s really things that I want to have (or not want to have) but somehow things contrived to turn out otherwise. But normally as time goes on, these burdens by choice tend to drop off one by one, and they are replaced by some other new burdens. But whatever it is, whenever one mental burden drops off, I always feel relieved and happy. At least whatever I do subsequently would not be affected by this particular mental burden, so I would be free to do what I want. Then there are some burdens that are time-inflicted ones, and as time goes such burdens would become bigger. But once these burdens are over, the relief is normally much stronger.

Why the sudden thoughts on these burdens? Well, I think it’s always good to think about these things that might set myself back at times, and one who can face these burdens are always going to be stronger in life.