Monday.

School today was OK, just that I was constantly tearing my hair out during my French lecture. I think at the rate of going, I’ll probably be bald before the semester ends.

The French oral test was actually pretty simple. It wasn’t like I got asked a lot of killer questions, and I think I managed pretty well. But no, I’m not regretting my decision to put my French on S/U because I really think my focus should be on my other module, as well as that dreaded HYP.

Went over to the NOC office to look for Hui Min and she reminded me of one fact – I’m getting out of NUS in less than 2 months’ time, so I probably would just need to hold on. I appreciate that reminder, but when my HYP seems to be getting nowhere it’s not exactly that comfortable a thought that I’m leaving NUS soon, especially when I’m due to hand in my HYP on 13 November.

Did some looking through of recruitment advertisements online just now and I saw a few jobs that looked pretty interesting and attractive to me. Maybe I’l really prepare my resume for these jobs before these advertisements get taken off. So that means I have more things to do for tomorrow.

Haven’t really recovered from the lack of mood, so apart from preparing for my IT1003 tutorial classes I didn’t really do much. Not that I’m exactly lazing around except spending about one and a half hours playing on my PS2. I can’t remember when the last time I played a game at home was.

Feel like watching a few movies in these couple of weeks. Now all I need is a kaki to watch with me.

Mood.

After coming back to Singapore for two days all I can say is that I’m not really feeling that awfully well. It’s like I suddenly seem to lose interest in everything in Singapore. I don’t feel like doing my assignments, I don’t feel like working on my HYP, I don’t feel like preparing for my resume… I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. I don’t understand why too, but it seemed like I get this kind of mood swings every time I return to Singapore from Hong Kong. Perhaps that’s a signal.

Nonetheless I’ve completed my E-Commerce Business Model assignment, and now I need to start working on the online version for my HYP experiment. The HYP is another source of my frustration. I hate it when I don’t seem to see any directions at all, even though it seemed that I’ve met my supervisor quite a lot of times. Sometimes I guess I have to take matters into my own hands and do things on my own.

School tomorrow – and to be honest I have absolutely no mood whatsoever to go for it. And please, I don’t need anyone pissing me off again tomorrow, though I don’t think that’s ever going to be likely. I’ve put my French on S/U today, mainly because I couldn’t be bothered with the course any more. I simply cannot stand both the lecture and tutorial groups that I’ve been assigned to. I mean, true there are some nice people here and there, but overall I just don’t enjoy learning the language even though I seem to be good at it. Maybe it’s the ego, or maybe it’s just some people.

2 more months and I’ll be leaving NUS for good. Even if I were to be doing a postgraduate course, NUS will be the last place that I want to do it at. I mean, 4 and a half years of memories at NUS was great, but if you take away the good memories, what remained would be just frustrations after frustrations. Make no mistake, I like NUS and probably would want to get involved with the Alumni in one way or another, but as far as studying is concerned, I think I’m pretty done at NUS.

Or maybe I should say I’m quite done with Singapore as a whole.