After coming back to Singapore for two days all I can say is that I’m not really feeling that awfully well. It’s like I suddenly seem to lose interest in everything in Singapore. I don’t feel like doing my assignments, I don’t feel like working on my HYP, I don’t feel like preparing for my resume… I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. I don’t understand why too, but it seemed like I get this kind of mood swings every time I return to Singapore from Hong Kong. Perhaps that’s a signal.
Nonetheless I’ve completed my E-Commerce Business Model assignment, and now I need to start working on the online version for my HYP experiment. The HYP is another source of my frustration. I hate it when I don’t seem to see any directions at all, even though it seemed that I’ve met my supervisor quite a lot of times. Sometimes I guess I have to take matters into my own hands and do things on my own.
School tomorrow – and to be honest I have absolutely no mood whatsoever to go for it. And please, I don’t need anyone pissing me off again tomorrow, though I don’t think that’s ever going to be likely. I’ve put my French on S/U today, mainly because I couldn’t be bothered with the course any more. I simply cannot stand both the lecture and tutorial groups that I’ve been assigned to. I mean, true there are some nice people here and there, but overall I just don’t enjoy learning the language even though I seem to be good at it. Maybe it’s the ego, or maybe it’s just some people.
2 more months and I’ll be leaving NUS for good. Even if I were to be doing a postgraduate course, NUS will be the last place that I want to do it at. I mean, 4 and a half years of memories at NUS was great, but if you take away the good memories, what remained would be just frustrations after frustrations. Make no mistake, I like NUS and probably would want to get involved with the Alumni in one way or another, but as far as studying is concerned, I think I’m pretty done at NUS.
Or maybe I should say I’m quite done with Singapore as a whole.