Conscience.

Conscience is a magical word. On its face value, it means “the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one’s conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action”, but if you were to split the word up into two, it becomes “con” and “science” – the science of conning people. It almost feels as if there is a scientific way to con others, in order to reap maximum benefit for oneself. And I guess very often we are trapped between “conscience” and “con/science”.

So much for the phiolosophy of the day. Anyway I realized that my second semester at CityU ends on April 25, meaning that if I were to return to Singapore, I could theoretically do it on 26 April. So when I told you guys back home that I can pencil my return in May/June, I think I’m about right.

Sometimes I wonder if it has been a mistake returning to Hong Kong, thinking that there are so many things that upset me within these 2 years since returning. Perhaps deep inside I still appreciated my time here because even though I did not work in any profit-making companies, the experience I gathered here was still valuable. Having said that, I believe it’s probably such experience that made me getting more and more disappointed with this place. It’s strange considering that I used to loathe Singapore and wanted to return to Hong Kong so much, but after really being here I discovered that perhaps Hong Kong really isn’t such a great place after all.

In human geography, we have learned that there are push and pull factors for people to decide on doing something. In my case, where I’m considering returning to Singapore, I really think it’s the push factors originating from Hong Kong that’s at work rather than the pull factors from Singapore. I’ll perhaps spend the next few months seriously considering this.