Church.

Ever since I’ve become a Christian I’ve got people asking me “why do I choose to become a Christian”, or “who influenced you to become a Christian”, or worse still, “is it because there’s a girl you like that goes to church so you started going too”. Strange questions, indeed. But then again I can’t blame them – I’ve lived so much of my life as a non-believer, it does take quite a lot of believing for them to believe that I’m a believer now. I could do with some clarifications, but I don’t think God ever needs me to clarify. He knows best the answers for all those questions, and that’s all that matters.

Anyway today was the first working day after the speech contest, and apart from a bit of post-contest administration to do, I had a relatively easy day. During the course of the day I spent a bit of time figuring out what I really want to do, and it seems that I’ve finally come to a conclusion. I think I want to devote my life working for young people. I want to help them grow and learn to become better human beings, impart into them life skills so as to prepare them for a richer life in the future. I don’t think I’m ever good in things like business or engineering, but I enjoy working with young people. I find that while the experience of working with young people can be frustrating at times, it’s also the most rewarding.

Perhaps I know I can never quite be a businessman or computer scientist, but I do believe the knowledge that I’ve learnt in these areas will come in handy in my work in the future too. I don’t think I must work in a university, but I think I’ll be happy as long as I get to work with young people. Come to think about it, it’s actually quite true – even during the period when I was teaching in IVE and got irritated by the students, I actually quite enjoyed conducting lessons for them. To be able to build a close relationship with the students was something that I really love, and until this day I still have fond memories of my time in IVE. So I guess that’s what I’m going to do.

I will not aim to see my name or story published in newspapers or websites, I don’t need people to recognize that I am successful because whether or not I am successful is not judged by me or other people. It’s His opinion that matters the most, and since this is the path that He has chosen for me, I’m sure it will be the right path for me. I know there might be difficulties along the way that might make me feel that the path I’ve chosen could be wrong, but I’m confident that His will is going to see me through. So help me God.