Rain.

It’s been raining non-stop out there since lsat Saturday, which actually isn’t too bad a thing for me because it makes it slightly cooler. I must thank God because He knew that I will melt under the sun, so He decided to keep me refrigerated with the downpour and the resulting cooling weather.

The large activities that my office has been doing have been concluded and I must thank God for allowing them to take place successfully. It’s His Grace, no two ways about it. Looking back, I won’t say I’ve contributed much to these events because of one reason or another, and for that I actually do feel embarassed. Compared to my other colleagues I don’t think I could ever say I’m a good employee, and I guess I’m always on a learning process.

Lately I think my views towards things, especially towards work, have been quite clouded by emotion, which I know is not a good thing. I get upset about things easily nowadays and I really don’t know why I am behaving that way. Maybe I am an emotional person right from the start, so I get easily distrubed about things, especially those that don’t happen the way I hope for. I do agree that I’m not someone who’s very high on EQ, and I display my emotions too easily sometimes – but that is me. I don’t like it when I have to pretend to like something or accept something when in actual fact I do not. But the truth is that in the reality, it isn’t quite the norm for people to display their emotions easily, which for me is a bit difficult to handle. Also, the funny thing now for me is that I get quite excited if given a chance to do ministry work with other brothers and sisters at church, but I just can’t seem to be able to translate that excitement towards my work in office. Perhaps I should see that my work in office is also a form of ministry, and that is something that I probably need to learn.

So help me God.