Work.

Life has been pretty hectic for me since the turn of the year. So far I must say the year has been full of ups and downs even though barely 3 weeks have gone by. I guess that’s what make life interesting – you can’t have all ups and all downs, instead God will pave a way for you according to His will, and we must learn to be grateful for everything that He’s planned for.

I’m almost 4 months into my job here at VTC, and while I still enjoy the experience here, the stress is by no means light. Sometimes I do stop and wonder about whether I’m in the right job, but I guess it’s still way too early for me to consider that. I mean, when I talk about whether I’m in the right job, it’s not so much about whether the position itself suits me, but rather whether the nature of the jobs that I’ve been in is suitable for me. For the past 2 years or so, I’ve been working in an administrative capacity, so I’m always handling administrative matters. Many of my friends, especially those in Singapore, have often been amazed by the fact that I am working in an administrative role. Perhaps the image I portrayed to them in the past was always one who creates something new, enjoy the experience of planning and executive activities, enjoy talking to people. To be honest, sometimes I’m surprised with myself too, given that I’ve gotten out of an administrative job and jumped straight into another one. And if you asked me whether I’d work as an admin person 5 years ago, I would have thought that you must have gone crazy. Now it seems like the one who’s gone crazy is me!

Whatever it is, I’m still going to be here for quite a while, and I really am not upset about my job or am looking to get out. In fact I still treasure each day as a new experience, it’s just that sometimes you do get that random bout of siansation in which you either try to get over it or get even with it. Of course, I still have 2 months to go in my 6-month probation period, so they could technically still get rid of me with a month’s notice, and I suppose I’ll still have to continue to work hard and perform well! But I know I can depend on God who gave me this job. I know I haven’t been doing my devotions frequent enough, I haven’t been praying enough, and I haven’t been faithful enough, and for that I know I am not pleasing Him. But I know He’s willing to give me strength and power to overcome whatever that comes my way.

"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 3:13-14, NIV)