Volatile.

Hello. Welcome to my lunchtime ramblings again.

I’ve decided that I’m going to keep this lunchtime rambling a habit whenever I’m eating my lunch in office. Ever since my usual lunch kakis have moved to other locations, most of the time I would have my lunch alone. Not too bad a choice sometimes, considering that I can have some time on my own to really do what I want to do – to finish up some reading, to have a quick nap, etc. Now I’ll just add updating my journal into these lunchtime things-to-do-list. Given that I’m not someone who’s too particular about my food, I usually just grab a takeaway lunchbox at the fast food stall opposite my office tower and bring it back to the comfort of my seat. Usually lunch would be a 15-minute job, leaving me with 45 minutes to my own.

As I grow older, I discovered that I’m kind of developing dual characters. On the one side of me, I now tend to keep a lot of comments and opinions to myself, not really getting upset about things or airing these grievances like I used to; but on the other side, I still grumble quite a bit, and still getting irritated very easily. As to when or under which situations would I be displaying traits of one of these characteristics, I have no idea myself too. What do you call such behaviour? Volatile?

Anyway, I would tend to think that it’s more of a case of me getting a bit more mellowed than I used to be. Perhaps with more life experiences, I see more, I understand things more, which makes it easier for me to understand and accept things that used to be difficult to swallow. Of course, having a religion works too. Sometimes whenever things get a bit edgy, it’s time to look up to the Bible and see what God has to teach me. Of course it’s not like you open up a page and then use your finger to point to a verse and say that’s the thing that God wants me to learn today, it’s about reading the verse, think on it, understand it, and see what that leads you to. I dare not say I’m good at it, and it’s something I’m still learning.

May is going to be an exciting month for me in terms of both work and life. Two trips out of Hong Kong to look forward to, having two weeks of the entire family in Hong Kong in the later part of the month, then a lot of interesting events coming up at work… life is getting exciting. There are of course still some worries hovering around at the back of my mind, but I guess I can take them all in my stride because I know who’s leading me around.

By the way I think I’ll give the AFC Cup match tonight between TSW Pegasus and that Vietnamese team a miss tonight. Perhaps I need a bit of time to get over South China getting knocked out of the competition, though I wouldn’t say that I’m overly upset with that. There are perhaps more things in life that I could be upset with.