Mood.

Strangely, I woke up feeling a bit weird today, and definitely wasn’t in a good mood. I don’t know what hit me, but it’s just that I’m not feeling too good about myself today. I guess there’s always times when one doesn’t feel right even though nothing is wrong. I have quite a bit of things going on in my head – work, life, love, and the lot. I guess for people around my age we start to think a bit too much.

I would say that I can’t really complain about the life that I’m living now. Not the best life, but I guess it’s one that is already better than a lot of people. I mean, there are certain areas that I think I could do better in, but I think overall I should be satisfied on how life has been treating me so far. It’s not like I’m struggling to make ends meet, or have any serious hardships. I mean, hardships, they are always there, but mine are probably pretty manageable. I still pretty much am on my own, that’s probably the only down side. And seeing my friends from college and senior high school getting married and having kids, sometimes I do think a bit more towards that direction. But what to do, I’m never one who knows how to handle relationships well, so things have never worked out so far. As much as I look forward to one, I am also afraid of how to handle one. I don’t know how the future’s going to be, but before that happens, I probably would live the way that I have been living, and perhaps pray to God that something good would happen to me. It’s in His plans, I believe.

Anyway life has pretty much gone back to normal after my one-week holiday and it’s good that this period really isn’t the busiest period of the year, and I am able to catch a breather and sort out some of the work that has been waiting for me for a while. And in the meanwhile, I look forward to my next holiday…