Emotion.

I know I shouldn’t be so emotional, but I guess I can’t really help it.  It’s not like I’m down, it’s just that my head has been spinning like a record these couple of days.  Too many things going on in my head and I guess there are some things I haven’t really gotten over yet.

In any case, one of the things that I’ve been bothered with – and it is just one of the things – is the direction that I want to be taking in my life.  I mean, I’ve been back in Hong Kong for 7 years already, and while I can’t say that I don’t like it here, I am getting a little weary and a little jaded.  I hope to be doing something else – like going back to school on a full-time basis.  For the past couple of months, I have been really harbouring the thoughts of studying again.  And this time round I wanted to do it full-time, i.e. putting down my work for one or two years and just study.  I wanted to explore the world again as a student, and I want to learn more things that I have yet to learn.  Make no mistake, working is great.  The experiences that I’m getting at work is great too and I like what I’m doing right now.  But it’s just that I believe in everyone’s life, there is always going to be a point in time when one feels that he/she wants to take an extended break.  I guess after working for 7 years, I might be getting to that point too.  Also, I want to be studying in a different environment, if I choose to go back to school again.  I did my undergraduate studies in Singapore and my first postgraduate degree in Hong Kong, so perhaps I want to do my next degree somewhere else – Korea would be a good choice (though if I can’t make it to anyone of the SKY universities I probably won’t bother) – but I haven’t really thought about what I want to study in.  I guess doing some international-related degrees would sound interesting.  And I would probably want to do a Masters degree first, and then decide if I want to do a PhD after that.  I guess I’m good at studying.

But please don’t misunderstand, I really like my job and it’s not like I’d go back to office and tender my resignation tomorrow.  Far from it – there are things that I still want to achieve at work.